Anytime I spend a whole day away from the house running errands, when I finally do get home I feel like I didn't do anything that day. Am I alone in this?
Well, I am home now. And it's muddy. And smells like wet dogs. But instead of dealing with that I figured I'd just stay out of that dirty room, light a candle, and write a blog post!
I wanted to take some time to acknowledge the importance of support systems when dealing with a recovery, or really anything. Learning to ask for help and recognizing when I needed it were not only the first steps in this process for me, but they were also the most frightening, albeit liberating.
To seek treatment this time was a conclusion I had to come to on my own, but once I did the fear didn't end there.
How am I supposed to explain this to my husband?
Do I tell my family?
My friends?
Well, I guess we all know what happened with that as you are reading this, now public information.
I obviously told everyone and found I actually felt relieved to be so honest about everything for once. But sharing isn't a one way street. And though it was huge for me to finally open up about all of this doing so put me in a very uncomfortable, vulnerable, sensitive position.
I know, I know. My choice to do this right? And though I have appreciated every single positive comment from each and every one of you, one person in particular has done an astounding job in supporting me.
My husband.
How positively cheesy right????
But seriously, this experience--though still very new--has been incredibly revealing about just how supportive and concerned he is for me. It's incredible.
When you reach out to the world and don't get what you need it's horrifying. And if it happens a lot you unfortunately get used to it. So, when you reach out yet again and finally get what you've been needing all along it's very overwhelming. So much so, that it's easy to forget the other person. It takes a lot to be a support person too. It's difficult to see the ones you love in a different, sometimes unflattering light. It's also difficult to know exactly what to do and how to handle the situation when someone is unloading so much on to you. For that these support people really need to be commended.
This is the focus of this post. Praising those people that are there for us. It's easy to be a little selfish when you are need and to forget to do this. But how will they know what they are doing for you is so important if you don't take the time to truly applaud them for it? Take care of your support people if you want them to take care of you. You might not know what it's like in their shoes.
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